Embracing Saturn’s Discipline: Uniting Binah’s Understanding and Kali’s Fierce Love for Transformative Growth (Part Two)

Disclaimer: This article is intended to inspire deep self-reflection and personal growth. The language and themes are direct and unapologetic, designed to challenge the reader to take ownership of their life. It’s important to remember that this content is meant for a broad audience and is not directed at any specific individual. Please approach the ideas presented with an open mind and take from it what resonates with your personal journey.

Embracing Saturn’s Discipline: Uniting Binah’s Understanding and Kali’s Fierce Love for Transformative Growth (Part Two)

L.O.O.P. And no, I’m not talking about the fun kind—if there even is a fun kind of loop.

I’m talking about those frustrating loops—the same damn problem or theme that keeps coming back, again and again. And guess what? The common denominator is you. It’s a loop of your own making. Your own personal hell. So how do Saturn, Kali, and Binah help break someone out of this hell when, frankly, Kali’s energy can be hellish if you don’t listen to the lessons and make changes? Weird, right? Trying to escape your own hell, but risking another if you resist Kali’s lessons—it’s counter-intuitive, but that’s the truth of it. Being in your own hell can feel like an illusion, a mixture of drowning and confusion.

But how do you even know you’re drowning if you’ve always been drowning? How can these energies help you? Are you in a rut? How would you even know? And how would you know that on the other side of the rut, the answer is discipline?

It’s frustrating when what you desire comes at the cost of discipline and accountability. Deep down, you know you’re the common denominator in your life’s chaos. Yet, instead of taking ownership, you find yourself blaming everyone else for your problems. But let’s be honest—you know the truth. You know you’re the problem. It’s time to take ownership and turn your chaos, your complaints, your tears into lessons and action.

In the first part of this exploration, we delved into the powerful themes of boundaries, structure, and transformation as embodied by Saturn, Kali, and Binah. We discussed how these forces impose discipline, demand introspection, and facilitate growth through the interplay of creation and destruction. Now, let's explore how chaos fits into this dynamic and how it signals opportunities for profound transformation.

Chaos as a Reflection of Internal Disorder

“They took a sip of Kali’s energy and spit it out. It was too much for them.”

The chaos was too much.

Chaos in life often serves as a mirror, reflecting where discipline, structure, or foundational understanding are missing. It’s easy to view chaos as an external force—something that happens to us rather than something we have a hand in shaping. But when you dig deeper, you often find that this chaos comes from a lack of internal discipline, a failure to establish necessary boundaries, or an unwillingness to embrace the deep wisdom that comes from self-reflection and transformative action. This is where Saturn and Binah come into play.

The Lessons of Saturn and Binah

“I lacked structure in my life. I lacked accountability. I was passing it all onto others. And then I was left alone, in tears, with my thoughts, my actions, and I realized—I was my own undoing.”

Saturn and Binah embody the principles of discipline, structure, and wisdom. Saturn, the planet of boundaries and limitations, teaches us the importance of structure and order. Binah, representing the understanding that brings form out of chaos, provides the mental framework and insight needed to navigate life’s complexities. When we resist these lessons—choosing to act impulsively, neglect responsibilities, or avoid self-discipline—chaos naturally follows. This chaos isn’t just a result of external circumstances; it’s a direct consequence of our internal state.

Kali's Role in Transformation

“Once she laid waste to my life, I was wrecked. I was out. How can I rebuild with this type of energy? I sat in tears looking at my life, wondering, how will I rebuild?”

“I’ve been there too—when shit hits the fan, and life seems to be spiraling out of control. But here’s the thing: you can take back control.” Did you forget you are god? Did you forget who you are?

Kali, the goddess of destruction and transformation, offers another layer of insight. Her fierce energy isn’t just about tearing down; it’s about clearing the path for something new to emerge. When Kali’s energy surfaces in our lives, it often manifests as upheaval or turmoil. This is a sign that something outdated or no longer serving us needs to be let go of. If we ignore these signals—choosing instead to cling to old patterns, resist change, or complain about the chaos—we miss the opportunity for profound transformation.

The Consequence of Resisting Change

“I constantly lied and resisted change, until it was more painful to stay the same than to change. In changing, I was afraid, and I also healed.”

Fighting the upheaval? Blaming others? Running from Kali’s energy? That’s a disservice to yourself. It’s like starting a marathon without sufficient training or lacking the discipline to sustain the change required to reach the finish line. In doing so, you not only fail to complete the race but also deny yourself the growth and strength that come from enduring the journey. The chaos, then, isn’t the problem—we are. By refusing to take responsibility for our part in creating or maintaining that chaos, we become our own greatest obstacle. This is where the deeper work begins.

Chaos as a Call to Action

“I woke up and realized I was the problem.”

The chaos we experience is a signal—a loud, unavoidable message—that something fundamental in our lives needs reordering or restructuring. But what does it mean to be out of alignment? To have lost your way, wandering in the forest without a compass? It means you forgot who the fuck you are. You are god. You are the creator of your fucking life. If you aren’t actively the hero in your own story, trying to save yourself from your problems, you are out of alignment.

Being out of alignment is passing responsibility to anyone and everyone that isn’t you. It’s shedding your responsibility and pretending you have no control over how things are done in your life. It’s not living at cause but choosing to be thrown against the rocks by the waves of others’ choices and allowing it to happen. It’s mediocrity, plain and simple.

This chaos isn’t random; it’s a reflection of where we’ve allowed disorder to take root because we haven’t imposed the necessary discipline or embraced the needed change. It’s the manifestation of the areas in our lives where we have failed to take ownership—where we’ve neglected our responsibilities, our boundaries, and our inner truth. It is metaphorically the places where we don’t own our Kingdom in Malkuth or wear our Crown—where we fail to stand in our power and claim our sovereignty over our own lives.

Malkuth, the Kingdom, represents our physical reality, the grounded space where we enact our will and shape our world. To not own our Kingdom is to live passively, allowing external forces to dictate our path. Wearing the Crown symbolizes stepping into our highest potential, embodying our true self, and ruling our life with authority and wisdom.

Wear your C.R.O.W.N.—not just a word, but a powerful symbol of who you truly are. This isn’t just a metaphor; it’s a way of being. It’s about owning your fucking life, being present, and reigning over your reality with the authority that comes from truly knowing who you are.

And if you don’t know who the fuck you are, then it’s time to start asking yourself, “Who am I?” This question isn’t just about finding a superficial answer—it’s about digging deep, uncovering your true self, and reclaiming your crown. Only when you know who you are can you start making the necessary changes in your fucking life.

When we avoid these responsibilities, chaos takes hold, and life becomes a series of reactive events rather than a deliberate creation. This chaos is a call to action, urging us to stop resisting the necessary work of Saturn and Binah, and to stop ignoring the transformative opportunities that Kali presents. If you ignore her, Kali will confront you, forcing you to see yourself—bloodied, undone, and stripped of pretense.

“BUT, recognizing the need for change is just the beginning. Now, it’s time to take action.”

Transforming Chaos into Order

“When I stood on my two feet, looked in the mirror, and started to love the beauty in the chaos, that’s when the messy sympathy came together. I came kicking and screaming to the abyss of change.”

To move from chaos to order, we must embrace the lessons of Saturn and Binah by establishing discipline and structure in our lives. We must also recognize and act on the transformative power of Kali, using the chaos as a catalyst for growth rather than a reason for despair. By doing so, we can transform what feels like overwhelming chaos into a structured, purposeful path forward, where true understanding and meaningful change can take place.

This journey isn’t easy. It requires facing your deepest fears, shedding layers of falsehood, and enduring the discomfort that comes with true change. But it’s in this crucible of transformation that we find our strength.

Take a moment to reflect: where in your life have you allowed chaos to take root? What areas need the discipline of Saturn or the fierce love of Kali to bring them back into alignment? Recognize these spaces as opportunities for profound growth.

Ultimately, it’s about recognizing that we are not victims of chaos but architects of our own lives. If we choose to accept this responsibility, we can channel the energy of upheaval into a force for lasting and meaningful transformation. By aligning ourselves with the disciplined energy of Saturn, the wisdom of Binah, and the fierce love of Kali, we can navigate our transformative journey with strength, clarity, and confidence, cultivating a life grounded in boundaries, discipline, and profound personal evolution.

“Once I realized that life is ultimately in my hands—that I am my own creator and my own destroyer—then it clicked. And now I gladly stand with Saturn, Binah, and Kali.”

Remember: The power to transform your life is within you. You are not a passenger—you are the Architect, the Creator, the Driving Force behind your own progression. You are god.

By Cathelina Salas 8/21/2024